reality bite

dont know why, i'm so gloomy today. feels like my life is hard which is silly cause my life is soooooooo flat. as flat as flatshoes *lah* feel empty inside, feel so emotional for no reason and get offended for every trash talk that i read or hear. gosh I feel like weirdo right now. I get insecure for something that will happen in the future. who will I be? what life I'm gonna live? will I ever do my dream job?
I get sad and blue all day for nothing, I dont even in a heartbroken. it just feel so wrong when you have no love, it is like 'what am I doing here?' 'why cant I get butterfly in my stomach?' I sees people everyday with their romances problem. single or not. ldr or friend with benefit. and I'm sitting there. listening their stories, giving advice while my mind is screaming out loud like Axl Rose. 'what am I doing? look at them, wonderful or pathetic, they have stories. and you dont have even just one!'
I also get offended for everything. am I need anger management? or people should have do-not-piss-me-off management?
so, reality bite. should chew it harder. like I always said "when life give you lemon, put that lemon in a bowl, pour some water, and make it kobokan." yeah that's right. kobokan.